9666.) Sometimes I wonder when someone will finally realize that I'm not fine.
May 2011
9672.) I put up all these walls around my heart to protect myself, when all I really wanted was for someone worthwhile to break them down.
I'm a bitch
Biggest bitch in the world…thats me…I ruin my friend’s lives and mine without even meaning to…wow that takes skill….fuck my life…why can’t I just die…it would probably make everyone happier…
9653.) I wish I felt like I was worth something.
“Don’t lose who you are, in the blur of the stars Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing, It’s okay not to be okay… Sometimes it’s hard, to follow your heart. Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising, Just be true to who you are ”
9603.) Sometimes, you just can't tell anybody how you really feel. Not because you don't know why. Not because you don't know your purpose. Not because you don't trust them. But because you can't find the right words to make them understand.
What type of guy leaves someone waiting for 12 hours straight? An asshole? There isn't really a word to describe such an asshole...
9531.) I am an ugly person, even if people say I am pretty on the outside. Inside I am rotting away with lies, secrets, and pain.
9579.) It hurts to think about you.
What is Mine
So apparently my necklace that I lost, something filled with sentimental value, was found by my ex and he failed to tell me this piece of information…I am NOT happy! And he expects to be friends again? HELL NO!
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?
a wand (magical one, not perverted)
8694.) I don't mind being hated it's just that I hate being misunderstood.
Slut
“Slut (noun)-an immoral or dissolute woman; prostitute.
When your own mother calls you a slut, its simply wonderful. Though when you look at the definition, its strange how you don’t match it. Some teacher she is when the person she called a slut, is a virgin, who won’t let any guy touch her unless they mean to have an actual relationship with her. Hmmm…does that sound like a slut to you?
Yes, I do show cleavage. Is it my fault I have big boobs, while you are stuck with small ones mom? No matter what I do, I’m gonna have cleavage. So what if I’m proud of what I look like. This is why I have such low self-confidence. Its because every time I start to feel like I’m worth something, my own mother puts me down by saying I’m fat, I’m a slut, no guy will fall for me unless I actually put makeup on and do something with my scraggly hair. Well guess what mother? I’m not some shallow, girly-girl who needs to put people down to feel better about themselves!
9248.) I dream about being in love and being loved all day and night.
Finding someone that can make me feel loved and protected is a dream that I shall always hold dear
“1150.) At night, when the sun hides and the stars come out, when I, with my ever so radiant smile wish you all the sweetest of dreams, when no one could possibly imagine anything but happiness in my eyes, the darkest of monsters come out to haunt me. They steal my peace, force me to surrender to their pain. And silently, I weep my sorrows. All because I cannot bear to tell you that the happiness, the smiles, the cheerfulness - it’s all a facade.”
—http://blogconfession.tumblr.com/post/343445533
A Lesson Learned
So much has happened this past year…Its amazing that I have survived and I’m not completely insane. I have experienced a new pain and have learned that if any man wants my heart, they must first understand that they can never restrict my freedom. For if one tries to take away the freedom that I have fought so hard to possess, I shall leave them. They will lose my trust, my friendship and my love, yet at the same time I will still be bound to them by a silver thread. For all those that I love throughout my life, will remain in my memories until the day that I die.
